Monday, June 9, 2014

6/9/14 Monday June 9, 2014 (warmups, long walk)

8:00am - Pain Free neck, hip, shoulder exercises - 60 minutes

9:00am - Kettlebell warm up

1/2K halos - 8kg, 4X each side / each leg (total 16X)
1/2K halos - 12kg, 4X each side / each leg (total 16X)
16kg Roll to press (TGU start) - shoulder cam shafts, each arm

Arm bar 12 kg, 2+2

12 kg TGU roll to elbow, 5/5

9:20am - Complete

11am - noon - brisk walk around Greenlake (3 1/2 miles)

Notes - This was a good day.  I felt just a little bit better in the morning, slept in, which I need.  Felt good enough to do some light TGUs, just roll to elbow, that was very encouraging for me.  Had a chiropractic appt at 10am, told my chiro what was going on, it was very helpful to just talk man to man with someone that I trust.  He checked me out, had some very good adjustments, but in general from a chiro perspective I am checking out, nothing major, just need to reset the wiring.  He tested my right arm, did some various muscle tests, again, nothing major.  Confirms what I have been feeling is that this is a major stress response and I need to take steps to address it, which I am doing I believe.  Given my penchant for wanting to keep moving through this, I took a brisk walk in the grass around Greenlake, felt good actually, didn't even put my headphones in and just listened to the sounds of the morning. It got hot at the end, felt great.  I will try to walk at Greenlake every day for awhile, I think this is therapeutic for me.  I cancelled my work trips to Spokane and LA this week, cancelled my trip to Atlanta for a leadership conference next week that was a big deal for me to be asked to attend.  Doesn't matter - it is not the right time.  I have to focus on my health.  Told my partner what is going on, he is very supportive, having been through divorce himself 10 years ago.  What a club, never thought I would be in this one, but I am / will be soon enough.  Made dinner for my kids, was able to play with them more today, body is just feeling better, if only incrementally.  One foot in front of the other is what is going to get me through this, and I will keep moving.

6/8/14 Sunday June 8, 2014 (Pain Free exercises, long walk)

I talked to Jill today after dropping the kids off at her place and told her all of this shit that was going on and said, enough is enough, call Anne the mediator, let's make an appt, and let's get on with this.  She agreed.  I cried a bit on the way home, because this is very sad for me, I am really still working through this despite 16 months of separation and before that about 4 months from when Jill first told me of her unhappiness.  So going on 20 months and I am still working through all of this. Then I took a walk around Greenlake, came home, took an Epson salt bath, cried some more, felt a lot better, did some of the Pain Free exercises that are helping me, and went to bed.  One day at a time.